I felt like blogging today and guess what? Exactly one week from my previous one. I suppose I'm falling into a pattern.
Work:
I hosted a big and fancy drinking event yesterday and it made me feel real good. Got to drink a bit with my new coworkers, my boss is wild hahaha. Also got to get out there and meet people. It was great and then I went to the lab right afterward, red faced and more clumsy than usual.
Chris:
My feelings for him are fluctuating, but they never sway all the way to detachment. I just don't want to give up that hope that things will get better. Call it naievty or irrational optimism, I want things to turn out better. I want to believe in a world where we can make it through hard work and perseverance. I saw him again today... he has a way about him that I can't help but love...
Andrew:
A weird character has appeared in my life, Andrew. He kind of has a lonely past, so I wanted to befriend him and get him to open up. Little did I know a sh*tstorm was a brewing in the distance. Turns out, he has become a club and gym scene gay. Interacting with him is pretty superficial and he gets pretty b*tchy when he isn't in the limelight.
Ohh, one of my besties knows him too, and I think he's starting to get pissed off at Andrew. You see, on facebook, Andrew has about 600 friends, yet he's texting me on an almost daily basis. Might I also say, I've only actually met Andrew three times, twice at different parties and another time was movie with friends. We haven't ever talked much.
He's also a slutbag. He has a "boyfriend" yet he still talks about going to parties for the "opportunties". Ughhh.... really, are these the people I attract?
Besties:
Going out with besties in 2 hours. I really need to see them. They are the glue that keeps me together as a person. They bought me a new computer monitor this year (as mine was from the early stone ages) and one of them even offered to b*tch Andrew out for some things he had texted me. I'm glad I have them, they are my secret source of optimism and good energy. I'm going to need to dip in there a few times this year.
Cheers guys,
Stay-at-Home Gay
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Oh my, I have a friend like Andrew and man, is he a B*tch when he doesn't get attention. I personally don't like talking to him any more because he gets a little ...touchy... Granted he is pretty hot, slutbags are not my cup of tea. Or cup of anything. Actually they kind of gross me out when I start hearing about his orgies and what they...do.
And I'm friends with him and his "boyfriend" and I dont' want to get involved with the "andrew" too much because I end up lying for him to the other boyfriend. I don't know if I'm being a good friend or what. i just don't get involved. haha.
AWWW Chris is the love of your life!! HAha, well I don't know. but when you can't really forget about someone like that and you have feelings beyond friendship even if it's over, I guess it's pretty valid to say it like that. But I don't know. It's how you feel towards it. But it's cute to call him that hahahah.
The "Andrews" of the world really help me appreciate a good guy when I meet him. I've stopped responding to his texts... I hope things don't get out of hand...
I like/love Chris a lot. I want to hug and kiss him and tell him everything will be alright... soon perhaps.
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